Monday, March 22, 2010

OK I need to get better at this

I know it has been a long time. I know I need to get better at posting. It would be good for me to as we have been told to keep a journal and this is the closest thing I have to one. But I am super busy with being a Wife, Mom, and Student. Sometimes I think I need to hire a nanny to do all of my dirty work, but then I realize I would just become a lazy lump on the couch. I enjoy the dirty work. This last weekend I decided to go through the boys toys. BAD IDEA!!! Especially since I have three tests this week. One in Chemistry, Pharmacology, and Nursing Fundamentals. And I had to write my first nursing care plan. That was tough. But School is going great I love going (even on the days when I have to beat the sun up). I am learning a lot and it is really good for me right now I am glad I have made the choice to continue. Jake is taking school off for the next year so that I can complete. The boys are growing bigger and bigger. I can hardly believe that Jeffery is going to be 8 this July. Life is flying by way to fast. Izack is at the top of his class in reading and math. JT is just the happiest little person I have ever met. Mikeal is finally out of the terrible two's (now that he is 3 1/2). And Wyatt is the most timid and skeptical baby I have ever met. It takes him a long time to warm up to people and things. Perhaps that is because Jake and I buy things that scare him. Like the big Dinosaur at Walmart we had to have cause it roared and made him cry. It is fun to be a parent, I wouldn't trade it for the world. I will try to get some pics loaded soon I just want some up to date ones.

Wednesday, October 28, 2009

Busy Busy busy

My Boys are getting so big. Jeffery is 7, Izack just turned 6, JT is 4, Mikeal just turned 3 and Wyatt is 8 months old. I just started school at Ameritech in their RN program. So far school is great. I will graduate in April of 2011. Jake is still going to UVU he will eventually graduate with something I promise. Right now he is working on his BFA to go to Graduate school and become a PA. I am going to update my blog a little more often I think I will do a post about all of the boys one at a time.

Thursday, July 30, 2009

It has been a while

Wow I can't believe that it has been almost 6 months since I last blogged. Probably because there hasn't been anything too exciting going on around here. JT turned 4 in June and tomarrow Jeffery will be 7!!! I can't believe that I have been a mom for 7 years. The boys are getting big and they really like to cause trouble. On more than one occasion this summer I have had to discipline them for using the hose to "clean" the Family Room. It will be nice to have them back in school at the end of August. I took a CNA class so that I can start school in Sept. at Ameritech (providing I jump through all the right hoops), to get my RN degree. It is an 18 month course and Jake and I thought better now then never. I am nervous but I know that everything will work out fine. Well that is our life in a nutshell. I will try to come up with something more exciting, for the next time.

Friday, March 6, 2009

3 weeks

Wyatt is 3 weeks old now. I thought that the newness of him would have worn off by now. NOPE!!! The boys love to be around him and they are still curious about everything he does. You know the questions Why does he sleep so much? why does he cry when he is naked? what does he eat? Well I guess it is better that they love him so much and they aren't trying to get rid of him.

Tuesday, February 17, 2009

He's Here

Wyatt was born on February 12, 2009 at 10:09 pm. Weighing in at only 9 lbs 6 oz and 20 inches long at 2 1/2 weeks early. He is a very healthy baby and had all the nurses at the hospital swooning over him. The nurses all told us that he was the favorite of all the babies there. We are so happy to have him here.

Monday, February 9, 2009

A big baby

So I went in for my 37 week appointment only to find out that I am measuring 42 weeks. That is 5 weeks bigger that what I should be. The Doctor sent me in for an ultrasound to confirm his measurments. And yup this baby is measuring to be 41 weeks 5 days, and about 10 pounds. So my Dr is going to compare ultrasounds and see if I can be induced sometime this week. I am sooo ready to have this baby. I dont really want to be induced but I dont want to risk having to have a c-section because he is so big. So wish me luck I know everything will be fine I just have to remember that.

Thursday, February 5, 2009

Jake wrote: A little about me or, my self actualization. *remember Rocky and Bullwinkle*

Here it is 11:28 at night and I have had one of those really internal conflicts within myself of what I believe as I stand here and now. So here it goes,
I hate pride, although I would be the first to admit I love attention when it is given too me, in far too many cases have I seen pride tear relationships, families, spouses, siblings, hell- entire countries apart from one another.Not to mention have been a personal witness to so many very close friends who have had a destroyed psychie because a man or men felt that he was entitled to something he had no right in asking for. Or in a separate scenario one person feels like their better than another or that they feel they should be entitled to something more so than another person. It is the root of all evil. I try to keep myself humble and open to idea's, thoughts, suggestions, recommendations. Sometimes I too am willing to try something once (within my personal boundaries which coincide with the doctrines of the church of jesus christ of latter day saints).
Those who know me, have maybe gotten to know me a little too well because I like to maybe divulge aspects of my life that maybe should be best swept under the carpet. But I feel that I am who I am today because of the choices, right or as wrong as they are, or were or will be. I can't cover up my choices. It's pointless to try to sugar coat things as difficult as they may be to swallow. Or as un-couthe as they are to some people. You've gotta take life at face value.
I believe there is a life after death. I believe that my ancestors that have passed on do watch after me and protect me when I need them.
I believe in prayer, but sometimes it's hard when you either don't get the answer you feel is the right answer or feel like there is NO answer at all and that you just gotta wait it out.
For instance recently I had this job interview and I felt so "inspired" that I needed to have the interview. The day before the job posted on IHC's website I was thinking of not applying because of a couple reasons A) I had my CNA classes and tests and everything paid for from the company I work for currently AVALON which is the parent company of the long term care facility I work in Heritage in American Fork and they want their employees to work for them for 6 months because they were kind enough to pay for everything. But there have been instances where people have taken off before that time period. And B) This baby is going to be here any minute and it would take me a little far away from home to go to work. So in that regard I was thinking that I didn't want to even apply for anything until April. But as I said before I felt "inspired" so I went and did what the lord commanded I guess. Well I got an interview for the job posting. So something inside of me was kind of welling up inside saying, you are so going to get this job because of how good the prompting felt. I think I did awsome at the interview but alas as you have read previously I didn't get it.
Throughout the time period of the interview and their denying me the job I had plenty of people telling me about "thank god for unanswered prayers" and the like. But I had a hard time listening to them because of what I felt inside.
Of course I took this incident negatively like I usually do and ask "why did you put me through this trial just for the disappointment".
Now like alot of you, it seems like this entire life is one disappointment after another with some wonderful and amazing blessings in between.
And maybe its a difference between optimism and cynicism. I feel like alot of time I try to keep optimistic about life and feel like if something doesn't go my way it is just god's way of saying maybe it wasn't for you. Or maybe it wasn't for you at this time.
I've found that having a great support system helps situations alot. Surrounding you with people who aren't necessarily "yes" men but people who will be optimistic with you in your undertakings of life but gently let you know if maybe you aren't necessarily making the right choice at the time.
I believe that miracles do happen. I believe that there are so many tiny nuances in life that are miracles that people just feel like they are just happen stance.
I had the opportunity to meet one of the most wonderful friends I had ever meet in my entire life and she happened to be 90 something years old. She was probably less than 5' tall and had the warmest most wonderful smile. She had squinty little eyes and most of the day she spent watching BYU television or listening to one speaker or another. I had some beautiful conversations with her about the church and about eternity and what she felt about life. And I had the opportunity to give her a priesthood blessing that I would never forget telling her that although she was going back home soon that she would still be in this life a little while longer, I blessed her with strength to endure the last little bit of her life and that our heavenly father was pleased that she continued to love him and have faith in him her entire life.
I later had come to find out that she ended up being able to bless COUNTLESS lives with her generosity, charity, and love for all those around her. The kind of person that you go to their funeral and the overflow goes all the way to the back of gym area.
I have been truly blessed to know so many amazing people in my life, both old and young, guys and girls, different ethnic back grounds with different religious beliefs. I've come to the conclusion that it doesn't matter what walk of life you come from you have the potential for greatness.
You can't judge people, period!
I love the depeche mode song 'Walking in My Shoes' from their songs of faith and devotion album. It pretty much sums up how I try to take people most of the time.
I'll admit that alot of times if someone is a little scary looking I will be apprehensive about approaching them but as I get to know them I will either allow myself to continue to become closer to them or distance myself from them. Depending on whether or not they are out "to get gain" or they are "to serve others".
I try to serve as much as possible. There have been times that jodi is home with all the kids and going crazy and i'm trying to fulfill my priesthood responsibilities in helping others around the ward as the situations arise.
I have found in life the more you fulfill your church callings or you strive to keep the commandments or keep those covenants to be a true disciple of christ you are blessed. I have found so many instances in my life where I've continued to strive to put one foot in front of the other in the right direction when things just so happen to walk me in a positive direction.
I can honestly say that being away from the church is not the person that I am supposed to be.
There was a period of my life where I was drinking 'the bitter cup' and became reviled by the person I was. My soul was in torture because it knew that I was going against what I knew was true. Not just knowledge but deep internal fiber of my personal being knowing, so I can honestly say that I KNOW that going against the principles of the doctrine of christ isn't the correct direction for me.
It's hard to see people that you love and that you look up too and idolize fall away. It shakes you up a bit and makes you question things. It helps to solidify your own protective barriers you have for your personal ethics and values.
Parenthood is the greatest blessing and blessed headache you will ever have in your life.
I've been told from a couple people that parenthood is likened unto having your heart ripped from your chest and running around rampant. I can attest to that. I love each and every one of my little men. I would do absolutely anything for any of them. But I can also tell you that trying to give them a decent amount of time is also difficult. They all want you all at the same time ALL the time and as those of you who have more than one child know. THAT IS NOT POSSIBLE. You do the best you can and most the time you feel like your failing miserably but you always thank the heavens that god has granted you with patience to be able to handle all of them at once and the ability to turn your ears to the volume of DEAF when they are all screaming at the same time.
For some reason you just obtain this capability of tuning them all out!
But parenthood is to not be taken lightly either. You are the childs EVERYTHING. Every little thing that you do and try to be and are they will mimic ten fold. You want to give your children everything their heart desires and be the best person that child needs. But then you realize that you too are only human and that they will never be able to get everything they want. Because that would be disastrous for them.
A big family isn't for everyone, but it is for me.
There have been so many times where people will be so suprised with how many children i've got and the space that we have had our children and thought "what are you trying to do to that poor wife of yours" my response is. WE, both of us. Jodi and I both decided ever since we started dating that our family was comprised of 6 children and for some INSANE reason, our father in heaven has felt that we deserve so far 5 of the 6 children. I know that each of them has been such an amazing miracle to even obtain them and then to have them enrich our family.
Most of my married life has been trying to figure out how i'm going to provide for this family, which is why I am currently working through the prerequisites to get into nursing school at either SLCC, UVU, or MATC.
I have loved the opportunity to continue my education. Ever since I went back to school at provo college I realized a couple things. The first was that it is possible to obtain your dreams and achieve your goals and that life will continue to take you through twists and turns and obstacles. You have got to stay focused if you ever, EVER want to amount to anything in this life. There are so many people who are a Jack of All Trades but master of none.
The question I have for myself is do I have a strong enough will and desire to stay focused on the goal of getting my family out of this predicament.
If you can dream it you can achieve it. You don't allow anything to get in your way of your dreams. YOU do have the power to change your course and do what YOU want to do. Keep opening those doors for yourself. Don't let stumbling blocks stop you from picking yourself back up and continuing to put one foot in front of the next.
ANYTHING is possible!
Well I've ranted for nearly an hour. Hopefully it doesn't take that long to read through my collected thoughts, as scattered as they were. Thanks to all of you for being such great support. For having foot steps in my life no matter how large or small. I love you and and look forward to the day when we are all partying in the eternities, knowing that we ALL obtained the eternal salvation we ALL were aiming for.